I'm supposed to hear by today.
Waiting to hear whether I've managed to get the job of my dreams.
Yesterday I got an email from NHS Jobs - telling me I hadn't got through the shortlisting process for a different job I'd applied for - my heart was in my mouth as I waited for the page to load and tell me whether I'd got the job, until I discovered it wasn't even from the right trust.
Now I'm waiting. It's finally hit me today that I'm waiting for someone else to make a decision, to decide what direction my life is going to take.
I feel like I have to stay by my computer, just in case they contact me.
I don't actually know how they are going to get in touch, but in the meantime, I'm here